princess and the pea

Bear with me, peops. I don’t do this often, but this has been annoying me for a few days. Background and explanation to follow; just need to capture this quickly while its dancing around in my head.
The resurrected accusation of being manipulative. How funny. Standard deflection strategy from a person exhibiting both long-term, entrenched, delusional and victim behaviour.
I’ve not worn this mantel before. Mainly because I’ve no need. I can validate friendships, create relationships, and surround myself with healthy good-hearted people through authentic, balanced, and empathic exchange.
So my question… has to be around motivation. What would benefit me to implement manipulative tendency in our (now historic and boring) situation?
It’s time for the mirror-work. Not the kind where you gaze at yourself and dream of being a princess, but where you make an exercise of focussing on yourself. An introversion to examine how you may be the curator of your own journey. How your inner monologues reflect a crevasse between reality and your perception. Take a moment to look around and wonder why those who cared most, invested much, and felt you mattered, have had to remove you from their lives.
Be ok with your brokenness, love your healing. But don’t be blaming others for your fear responses, hidden behind uncontrolled arrogance. We are not the reason. Move forward, but don’t rebuke others for not wanting to walk beside you; you’re difficult and tragic and ridiculous. And I wouldn’t waste my energy manipulating any of that crazy.